To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance --- Oscar Wilde

Full of a short but sweet good news report!

The scale has finally started to move downwards again! i've pumped up my running too so I think that's all helping! so to date i have lost 7 pounds!! So only 17 more to go! Goals are seeming to be achieveable again!

Also today before I jumped in the shower I tried on a pair of shorts that I bought in Oz but didn't fit me when I left! (in fact in probably one of the most devastating days the zipper popped in front of Matty!) I put them on today and they fit better than when I bought them!! (Insert happy dance) I reckon (yes I reckon..I am not losing my Aussie lingo) in 2 weeks they will be loose! Some days its hard to be motivated to get out of bed and head to gym but I'm pumped! Everything I'm doing and the sweat and aches are WORTH IT!!

I tried a new fitness yesterday called BodyJam...it's a cardio dance class and it was AMAZING!! I have not taken a dance class in years and it was so good! I'm going back next week! So as much as the night classes are a rush to get to, I think they will be good cross training! The extra yoga classes are improving my flexiblity and stretching out my hip flexors making running easier!

So i'm happy with running success...but no job prospects! I'm going to london tomorrow to get new running shoes and new socks! A good treat for me!! Been sleeping in all week so I have to get up early tomorrow to take the garbage out before 9 so I'll be in the gym then headed to London and back in the avro to do grocery shopping and catch up with my crazy mum!

thanks for all the support...it means the word! You are the best support I could ask for right now!!

Sar

Ok I just got back from the gym and have to share my accomplishments! I'm so proud of myself! Enough that I want to do a happy dance and share it with all of you!! I ran for an hour straight and ran over 8 KMs!!! I haven't done that in SOOOOOOOOOOOOO long! It feel amazing to have done it! The best part is that I felt like I could have kept going! The marathon is seeming more and more achieveable! My clothes are getting loser and I can tell when I look in the mirror that I'm losing now only if the scale could catch up with the rest of me!! Trying to be patient...and trying is the key word...

So real life news...have a few updates...2 good and 1 bad...so lets do the bad then end on a good note...

I've been trying to sort out some weird banking problems. I got a 50 dollar money order from my step dad (whom i am estranged from) for my birthday in May but I was unable to cash it in Australia (and i lost for a while lol) so I cashed it when I got back to Canada this past month. Well I got something back from the bank telling me that the money had been taken out of my account. So my bank finally after about 2 weeks figured it out...my step dad cancelled the money order in August!! So..that 50 bucks is so much to him that he had to cancel it...GIVE ME A BREAK...maybe you would think that I haven't cashed it so there MIGHT be a PROBLEM considering I am in a DIFFERENT country...guess that answered any questions I had about him.... years later he still finds a way to hurt me!

So good news... I got news from the Ontario College of Teachers! My application is processing and I'll hear in 4-6 weeks maybe sooner...FINALLY I'll be able to get back to what i love! I could have it by the end of February!! I'm so happy!!

Last night my mum told someone that I may be going back to Australia and she hopes that I do so she and her boyfriend can come and visit!! It made me so happy because it made me feel like going back to do my Masters was really an option not just a dream!! I know it sounds silly but having my mum's support means heaps!! She and I talk about everything so hearing her say that last night made me happy that if I decide to go back that I don't have to feel bad about it! Its a relief and makes me happy because I do want to go back! I love Aussie! AUSSIE AUSSIE AUSSIE OI OI OI!!

Just got off the phone with Matty! I'm happy and smiling...FINALLY A GOOD DAY!!

Sar

I'm trying to build a running playlists...love to run to Audioslave, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Cake, Wolfemother (lol Matt I know you'll laugh at that) but I'm looking others suggestions!

Let me know!!

Sar

Just thought I'd give an update for any who's interested and ask for some help!

This weeks training has been chugging along really. My weight goes up and down in a 3 pound range. With my body still being out of order, and finally getting my period at the right time, I won't know really about weight loss until next week really. So I'll post next wednesday and I'll let you know more (thursday Aussie time).

This week my cardiovasular is improving and my weights are increasing. Weight training has always been something that my body has responded well and gained muscle easily. So it doesn't surprise me that my weight training is going well. Today I ran for 45 minutes straight...3.65 miles (almost 6kms) so I'm happy! As my cardiovasular training increases then I will do better on run days! After the run today I felt like I could keep going and I wasn't out of breath! The marathon is seeming more and more achieveable! Less than 17 weeks of training! My mum and her boyfriend have agreed to come with me to the marathon! So I'll have some friendly faces there to greet me as I cross the finish line!

So things are a bit busy...trying to keep busy...keeps me from feeling lonely all the time...thanks for the support and kind words! I miss you guys!

Sar

So I'm still plugging away at the gym.. Although these days my body is hating me more and more for the torture!!

My weight is slowly making its way down...but slowly! My weights are increasing at the gym so I expect the next few weeks it will slowly go then it will go quickly! So I'm just trying to be patient and keep chugging along! But more and more the gym is becoming therapy really. Today when I was in the gym a staff member came up to me and asked me if I was ok because the look on my face. When I'm working out I zone out and think of all the things that I have decide. I put my Ipod on and put my angry music on and just try to sort out all of the things that overwhelming my mind!

Yesterday was a crazy crazy day! I signed up for the start of a new class at the gym. The class is a mixture of yoga, pilates and ti chi! Its great class. The class was at 10:30 so I came into the gym at 9 so I could do my weights and cardio for the day! I stepped on the treadmill and was feeling good so I did my full 40 minutes of cardio on the treadmill running! I ran a little over a 5km (3.3 miles)...I was proud of that accomplishment. Then I did my yoga class and it was great I was amazed at how flexible I was! I was able to get into the bridge position with no troubles and got into a position with my foot almost reaching my head! It was great (but I'm sore today)! Then I went home and did my hour of cardio as well! By the time I went to bed last night I was exhausted and could barely keep my eyes open!

Today I made a late start but I guess my body needed the sleep. I made it to gym and ran another 5 km today. So proud, I feel like the training is making a difference. I feel like the marathon is getting more acheiveable really. My body is transforming itself...just have to be patient and believe in myself! Its hard somedays but the training is the only thing these days that makes me happy...just lonely I guess...

Ah well that's for all...

Sar